Kitty-Puss, My Heart

My beautiful, sweet Scribble has made her journey to the clouds.

The awful c word has spread to her lungs and progressed faster than expected.

The regular coughing fits became harder for her to recover from and to save her from suffering, we had to make the gut-wrenching decision.

Our Vet is an amazing, compassionate person and let us take Scribble home for one last night together.

On Wednesday morning I sat on the couch crocheting a cardigan, Scribble curled on my lap and we watched one of my favourite movies together (Twister).

We were so alike, Scribble and I, both quite easily scared. We sat patiently waiting for the TV to load Netflix, and when the intro sound thumped out we both got a fright and jumped.

When spent the whole morning cuddled together until she began to cough severely and I knew I couldn't let her struggle to breathe anymore.

Her journey to the clouds was so, so peaceful.

For that I am grateful.

No more suffering, my beautiful pussy-cat. 

It rips my heart anew when I expect to see her somewhere and then realise she isn't, and won't ever be again.

She loved soaking up the afternoon sun from our bedroom window sill.

And her favourite place to sleep during the day is right up in my banana shaped pillows.

Her favourite blanket was the teal throw I made with super-quick yarn so I bought another ball to make her a piece of the blanket to take with her.

On our last afternoon we caught the last of the afternoon sunrays together.

I buried her near the new clothesline I built a couple of weeks ago, and made a garden bed on top of her resting place. In the garden I have planted dahlias, snapdragons and a beautiful orange climbing rose.

Scribbles garden.

I cant decide how I feel.

I am definitely heart broken but I think I am angry.

So angry.

These sweet little creatures love us and it's our duty to provide them the best life they could dream for, but in the end, we can't put off the inevitable.

Scribble I am so sorry. You truly were the perfect companion and I hope you liked your life with me.

🤍🤍🤍