Friday, November 29, 2019

New Beginings and Growth


It's only the second last day of November and I'm already reflecting over the year.
What a doozy it's been.
There have been some life changing events.
And while I argue with the stars and the Universe that I'm not ready for these changes, I don't have a choice.
Things happen.
They will continue to happen.
And all I can do is hang on and hope.


But while I sit around feeling sorry for myself, completely absorbed in my own pity party, I know I'm supposed to be acting like an adult.
So I try to pull up my frilly knickers and get on with it.


That's what you do.
Life carries on so you just get on with it.
The kids still need raising.
The house still needs cleaning.
The garden needs watering.


I'm grateful for all that I have and try to look at the positive side of things.
All the changes are to teach me lessons.
My biggest lesson has been to make every moment count.
It's just plain cruddy that it takes such big changes to make me realize that.
Maybe I forget to always appreciate things and that's why the Universe keeps sending me these reminders.


But I'm listening now.
I'm tired and don't want any more big changes for a while.
None beyond my control/choosing, anyway.


One door closes and another one opens.
That's what they say.
I'm motivated to open my own door.


I just wish there was some way to know what the right or best decisions are.
Do I give the heart what it wants?
Or do I use my noggin and question everything so much that I twist it up and take so long to figure it out I lose the opportunity (I guess that would be the Universe stepping in)?

Usually the heart wins.
Stupid, romanticized, emotional thing it is.
But I'm actually putting a lot of thought in this time.
I'm guarded.
Walls are up.
How much more can the soul take.


I'll figure it out.
Or I won't.
Time to close my eyes, spread my wings and fly..

I just hope I open the door before I try to fly through it!

Sunday, November 3, 2019

Blossoms and Blooms

The weather has been so upside-downy here lately!
Warm days where you just want to lay in a hammock with a cold drink, then before you can put ice in your glass its raining and you find yourself shnuggling down under blankets!

So on those chilly days while the kids are hogging the TV, I curl up nearby with whatever book I have chosen next from my 'to-be-read' pile.

I enjoyed every page of a friends copy of The Au Pair and am now getting into Gypsy Girl by Rosie McKinley.
It's incredible to read about her life as a part of a travelling family.
The things she got up to would curl the hair of our modern day parents - me included!
But she survived and thrived, and it has made for a great book.


When the rain clears up do you venture outside?
Or stay cosy indoors for a while longer?
I go out and breathe in that fresh earth rain mix of air.
Reminds me of my childhood.
Maybe I haven't gotten old and grown up too much after all ;)


The raindrops gently resting on the flowers are so pretty.
Little diamonds and glitter specks.


This rose looks good enough to eat!
Like a boiled lolly, super sweet!


I planted this wisteria a few years ago.. like maybe 5ish! and it quickly wound its way up a post and began weaving its way across the top of an archway/veranda thingo, but then it stopped and started to die off.
Not just drop leaves for winter but the ends of the branches completely died.
I trimmed it back to halfway up the post to where it was still alive and after reading that wisteria quite like stress on their roots, I got in there with a shovel.
Sounds crazy but apparently it works, so here's hoping!
Mine didn't go kaput after the shovelling so maybe it'll work, it did give a few flowers but no new runners.


I have a serious thing for roses lately and have a huge crush on this climbing one!
I've planted it at the opposite end of the archway/veranda thingo to meet up with the wisteria.. if it grows.


We strung up some solar fairy lights and I have visions of the rose and wisteria mingled together, twinkling lights amongst them, the sweet scent travelling in the breeze and petals gentle falling to the ground.
So romantic its almost cheesy ;)


Today we transplanted our sad apple tree into a pot in hopes to give it a boost and in its place put this amazing tree rose.
It reminds me of the Red Queens roses from Alice in Wonderland.
I am so in love!!

I threw handfuls of sunflower seeds all over the back garden months ago and what the chickens and wild birds didn't gobble up sprouted the biggest sunflowers ever!
I was amazed when this one grew taller than me but now I cant even reach the top on tippy-toes!
I can't wait for them to bloom.


I was super excited to find my first cornflower, I took this picture straight away.
Lucky I did because those cheeky (among other words) chickens had completely devoured every single leaf from it by the time I got home from work that same afternoon!
Another plant tucked away from easy sight has flowered a beautiful shade of dark blue.
I just hope it doesn't get a haircut too! 


The wind has been bonkers at some stages over the last few weeks but hardly any nectarines have fallen, yay!
The tree has oodles all over..
cross your finger and toes that the birds leave them alone while they grow!


The clouds were so pretty the other day.
I used to look at the sky so much as a kid.
I remember hot summer days on the school oval surrounded by dry native bush (literal bush, it wasn't planted on purpose, our school was right on the edge of the scrub. The whole town was, it was fantastic! I might need to do a post on it another day..)
.. I got sidetracked, as I do..
Anyhoo, on those hot days when we were supposed to be doing our sports lessons, me being the non-athlete that I am, would stand away from the crowd half-listening but eyes wandering around the bright blue sky, admiring the shapes of clouds or birds flying by.
Hmm.. I'm starting to realize some things about myself ;)


Some days when I look at the sky now I get a deja vu feeling from specific times from my childhood.
I'm glad for that feeling, it reminds me I still have that child in me, but it also saddens me that time goes by so fast and we can't get the old days back.
I guess it just goes to show we need to appreciate everything we have because nothing lasts forever.
Eep, that was a bit heavy.


It just occurred to me how random my posts can be, and how my mind is all over the place.
I would normally delete sentences or paragraphs when I feel myself veering too much but today I just want to ramble.
I want to look back at these posts one day and not see them neatly trimmed, showing all and nothing but positivity (which is my focus) but also see my sad moments, my loopy-doop thoughts, and irrelevant memories.
I'm already looking forward to looking back through these posts one day and reading about my childhood sky watching :)
*I honestly just heard my youngest go out the front door and say 'look at the sunset'. He's onto it.. the sky is dusk blue with pink, purple and orange clouds. He's definitely my son <3

As squiggly as my mind works I do slow it down.
I bought the pattern for this bobble heart square last night and tried it out immediately.
Nighttime pics don't turn out so well, it's actually a nice red.
I hope to make a sweet lil blanky of these squares.


The day is winding down, so are me and my lil family.
I'll wrap myself up in Boof's (Elvis' new blog-name) flannel shirt and go sit under the stars, watching them slowly appear.


Maybe watch the new fairy lights twinkle away and imagine how beautiful it will be when the vines have grown through them.
Gnite
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