I'm Still Here

It has been a long time since I've felt like writing.

Saying goodbye to Venus really knocked me for a loop and I tucked myself away, thinking nothing was worth saying. 

But I have been quietly busy, teaching myself new skills.

I have given embroidery a go and despite my lack of patience and preferring fast results, I love sitting quietly, threading the fabric with colour.

I caught covid and when I wasn't in bed sleeping it off, I was tucked up on the couch watching documentaries and series, working away on the countless projects on the go.

My friend is having a baby in October so I made her a Call The Midwife inspired blanket.

And booties from my Nanna's vintage pattern. I'd like to make the whole set but people don't seem to dress their babies in bonnets and mittens any more.

Another friend had twins! So for her I made matching blankets.

Her tiny baby girls can both fit under one blanket at the moment. Too cute!

I've made a couple of dresses for myself. 

I used jersey stretch to make this 2 panel dress. 

By panel I mean back and front! 

No other seams that the shoulders and sides.

Perfectly simple!

I've become obsessed with ribbons and lace and made myself two of these flanelette nightdresses. The other has long sleeves. I didn't use a pattern, just winged it, as I do, and am so please with how it turned out. My boys call them ghost nighties.

The garden has been a very slow point which saddens me because i get so much joy from having a garden.

This giant bed was here when we bought this house last year but I want raised beds as I'm not getting any younger, and high walls will make it a bit harder for chooks and ducks to munch my vegies!

So sand was trucked in and leveled out.

And slowly the grass runners I plant are spreading to give a nice lawned area to enjoy in summer. Toward the fence I will have my raised beds which I excited will order in a couple of weeks. Then I can get back into the joy of growing my food.

Now some unhappy news.

My heartbreak of losing a furry love will be happening again very soon.

Kitty-puss had a large lump on her chest that was removed and sent for testing which came back with the worst results.

Cancer.

An xray was done and has shown that it has spread to her lungs.

The original expectancy of 12 months has been reduced to 6-8 weeks.

So my beautiful, 13 year old Scribble is getting her favourite cooked chicken as often as she likes, and having all the snuggle naps with me we can manage in between work and chores.

It's just not fair.

Im not sure if I have he strength to go through another loss, especially so soon after Venus, but I have no choice.

I must keep in mind that I have tried to give them the best possible lives they could have, and maybe I'll see them again one day.

Beyond the iridescent rainbow clouds.

🤍🤍🤍

Love is Forever

My beautiful, sweet Pooch Girl has made her journey over the rainbow bridge.

My heart is broken in a way I don't think it will ever mend.

Every day I wake up hoping it was just a horrible nightmare.

My eyes blink awake.

My mind stirs back to reality.

And through the fog it hits my heart with a punch.

I sift through photos and sob, wishing I could lay on the floor and snuggle with her forever.

The joy she brought to my life recorded in pictures, to remind me of our fun and love.

The day I was painting the hallway at the old house and she walked by, brushing against the wet paint.

Not only did she stripe herself but she also left behind an incredible amount of fur on the wall of wet paint. 

So funny.

Such a gentle soul.

Would sit patiently to have her picture taken before simply putting her head down to take my sunglasses off.

She didn't choose the vogue life, the vogue life chose her.

Among many favourite treats were prawn crackers.

Pizza crusts too.

I like to think she is still going for happy rides in the car with me, the wind blowing into her face. Gosh, she loved it.

As a puppy she wasn't too mischievous. 

The one cheeky thing I remember her doing was frequently chewing on a potted blackberry bush.

It thrived despite.

As the years continued she remained a gentle, sweet soul.

So loyal and devoted. 

Content to just be close and holding me with one paw.

My sweet lady.

How to go on without her?

I make a point of not using real names in my blog but I want to share my Pooch Girl's. 

Please send a little prayer to the stars for my sweet Venus.

Remember her too.

Oh, Venus.

I will be with you again one day, having wonderful cuddles-cuddles.

Goodbye Venus, my booful girl.